My bankroll is getting really really small. I'm down to like $650 on FT which is the lowest it's been since back in January. I've taken quite the beating the past few weeks and still feel ok which is strange. I guess since i've gone up and down so many times i'm starting to get used to it. It still doesn't feel great or anything but my confidence is still in tact. My BR management has been tested, and so far i've passed although i might kill myself before i move all the way down to 10nl (jk ofc).

I dropped about $400 this weekend putting in about 6k hands. The volume has been nice, but the results just aren't there. I know that I've tilted a bit, but not nearly as much as I used to and probably only a couple buy ins worth if that. So for me to lose $350 at 25nl in one weekend is a little unsettling. All I can do is not think about it, review some hands, and get back on the grind.

I've been on bad runs like this before so I know I'll pull out of it. I have enough friends on here I think it's impossible for me to fail unless I choose to walk away (which i almost have a couple time ). I've dropped down to 4 tables and am focusing a lot more. I'm going to be getting hold of a lot of ppl in my skype contacts for sweats on a more regular basis and hopefully i can turn this thing around.

That's about all i have, just a random venting blog about how shitty my life is, standard .

August has been an interesting month. It was basically me getting back in the swing of things after taking a month hiatus from poker for most of July. Started with plo, transition into rush nlhe, and ultimately back into the regular 25nl 6max games. I don't think i'm gonna play tonight just to give my mind a bit of a rest and avoid burnout. I played near 34k hands of holdem and a few more thousand of Omaha. Lost something like $100 on the month which is a lil upsetting but not too worrisome. I'm really looking forward to September and challenging myself to do better.

I think I'm going to keep super grinding it up and go for as many hands as possible. 35k is a lot when you have a full time job, and that's with some overtime as well. I'm guessing it won't be quite as much since a lot of that was rush, but 25k still seems more than doable if i keep my mentality. The main thing is i haven't forced myself to play, i just get home from work ready to battle and craving poker. This is weird considering the last couple weeks were a complete disaster, i just embraced it and kept on trucking.

I think it's important that i incorporate some study habits in my routine though. I was pretty horrible in August, so i'm going to try and watch at least one video a week, and do session reviews on a regular basis. I'm not sure how well I'll do with this, but i'll give it a try. Typically I've just been wanting to play and not worry about anything else, which is probably why rush appealed to me so much.

I've been thinking about Vegas next year and unless I end up having more money than i thought, i'll probably only go for a few days. It's just so hard to save money right now, and i can't imagine it being much easier next year when work starts to slow down. This is another reason why i've been trying to play more. I know I'm a winning plr when my head is right, so the more i play the more money i will make, and hopefully that will translate into an extended vacation. It'd be nice to be crushing 5knl and do whatever the f i want but i just don't think that'll ever happen. I'm just going to have to be content with having a real job, and making a few hundred a month on the side. That's saying more than most people i think, so i really have nothing to complain about, although i'm sure i'll find something

So that wraps up this blog. I don't like setting number goals cause it just depresses me or makes me play different if i'm not reaching them. However, I have a good feeling about September and looking to have a record month. I'm not even sure what my record is for a month, but I'm hoping to at least be back at 50nl and knocking on the door of 100nl again. This should be more than obtainable.

Let's do this!!!!!!

Lots of things have happened since my last blog. First off, i'm never mentioning when i'm winning again b/c it is a curse and i was doom switched like a mofo . Basically i was up almost 1k w/ rakeback and bonuses and now i'm down a couple hundred . Some of that was tilt, starting w/ winners tilt thinking i'm running like god when i wasn't and was probably chasing/calling down way too light. Then after realizing my run good was over, i started running super bad and went on meltdown tilt a couple times. I'd say at least half of it was running poorly though. It just happened to be 10x worse b/c i was running so well before that my mistakes were magnified. Not sure if that makes any sense, but it does in my head.

Moving on, I stopped playing rush yesterday cause it's pretty much the devil. I never had any reads and it was just bad news. I was running super hot at the beginning of the month so i thought it was the nuts, but then the tables turned and i hate it now . I'm back to playing 4-6 tables of regular 25nl 6max. Yup, i'm back at 25nl cause i lost too much at 50nl, fml. It's weird not seeing my FTP's rack up so quickly, normally i play an hour and have like 300 ftp's, now i get like 60 . It's really not a big deal, except i'm trying to get some points together to buy a monitor from the FT store.

I'm planning to get the 20'' monitor in the FT store and run it beside my laptop. I should be able to just run a HDMI cable and make it work but i'm kind of a tech noob, so maybe i need something else? My Grandpa has an old desk that he's getting rid of and looks pretty decent so I think I'm gonna take it. It's obv better than what i got b/c what i have is a TV tray. I'll post the pic of the desk below. Basically I just want somewhere to put my Lobby, Itunes, skype convos, and other random stuff while i'm grinding and not have it all cluttered on one monitor.

I guess that's all i have for now, played well over 30k hands this month. Im hoping to get close to even in the next few days but not sure if it will happen. Work has been surprisingly slow lately so looks like I'll keep grinding. I did take a day off to go see a White Sox game, which they obv lost, but it was still a good time. Probably could've been a really exciting blog if i put some effort into telling my stroies better but this will have to do for now cause I have a family party to go to in a lil bit. Pz out

The Desk

I think this is the second blog in a row about poker, which is nice cause i was blogging about random shit forever. I've been running super hot the last couple weeks. I hit a brief speed bump when moving back up to 50nl, thought i may have to stay at 25nl but then my boomswitch turned back on. I dropped about 4 BI's in two days at 50nl rush, basically 60% of my winnings from the previous week. Then I figured i'd keep on plugging away and had a +6 BI session the next time out.

Since then I've been winning a little bit each day but haven't really played a lot. I've been pretty tired from work and having fun chilling at home. Still getting used to not living w/ the parents and it's sweet. Right now i'm up $670 from poker on the month with a winrate of 15bb/100. Obviously i know that's not sustainable but i think at 50nl about half that can be achieved. Either way i don't like getting into winrates and all that cause stats can drive me crazy if I pay too close attention. It just messes with my head.

With rakeback and bonuses i've done pretty well so far. I feel like i'm playing just the right amount to not go crazy, but still get in volume that's not embarrassing, (rush poker ftw). I'm not really sure what my goals are anymore. I'm getting close to being rolled for 100nl agian (although i shouldn't count chickens before they hatch). However, I could use some extra money now and could probably do ok just playing 50nl and cashing out a few hundred a month.

I was pretty devastated last time my bankroll nosedived from 2600 all the back down to just under 1200. I still feel like I could beat 100nl but I may have to work harder, and I'm not sure that i want to anymore. It's just really nice to coast along at 50nl knowing exactly how the games are and for the most part know what to expect. On the flipside I should be challenging myself and trying to make more money. I was reading an interview in Cardplayer w/ Leggo superstar Luckychewy and he was saying to take lots of shots and not get too comfortable at your limit. It makes a lot of sense cause i think that's what i'm experiencing now. I guess for right now I'm just gonna keep trying to move up since I'm working OT at work and don't rely on poker for money.

So that's the situation, running great, playing good (probably), and working hardish. Hoping to go on a supergrind this weekend but probably get distracted. I've been super tired lately and my allergies are starting to kick in hardcore. I get itchy eyes and start sneezing like a fool around this time of year. I never got checked out but i'm sure it's from the pollen or whatever. Think i might get meds this year. Hopefully that all gets sorted out. That's what i got for now, pz.

It's been almost two weeks since I've updated, mostly b/c whenever i'm at my computer I've been grinding 25nl rush. I'd have a lot more hands in but I've been having a lot of fun with my roommates clowning around town. I think I'm pretty much back to the normal grind now and it feels good. Of course I've been smashing it so that's prolly why it feels good. I'm up $340 thru 10k hands not including rakeback. I've made about $100 on rakeback and made another $150 from clearing my midyear bonus. So after cashing out about $500 to making $600 in under a month I'm feeling pretty good.

I'll likely move back up to 50nl. I think I'm going to stick with rush b/c I can get in a lot more hands and I think I know how to play it better than I used to. I was pretty bad at rush when it came out, but now I feel I've calmed down and taken more time with my decisions and it seems to be going much better. It's nice b/c now I can actually get in decent volume and still have a life on the side of work and poker.

Since moving in with my friends it's been pretty epic. I'm guessing this is going to be a year i look back on and say "those were the days" and all that stuff. There are some downfalls, like not grinding as much as i could be, staying out too late, and having to cook/pay rent/ all that other on your own stuff. I'd say overall though I'm very happy with my decision. For next year I'm looking at buying a condo. I've found some pretty decent places that are affordable. Haven't gone to see any in person yet b/c it's still early, but even some of the more expensive 1 bedrooms look pretty affordable. It'd be more than enough space for me so seems like a good option.

So that's all i got this time. Back on the poker grind, back on the leggo grind, and living the life.

I've moved in to my buddy's place and surprisingly unpacked 100% already.I took some pics of the new setup but it's really nothing special and didn't feel like posting them. I have much more space now and am digging it. Today was the first day coming home from work to the new place and missed my turn cause i was spacing out. I guess that'll happen when you've driven the same route home for over 3 yrs. I'm pretty happy with the setup, but might get another monitor for the laptop now that i have the space.

I played some more poker yesterday, got in about 400 hands of rush plo. I really enjoy plo when i'm not running like shit at it. I might pick up Omaha manager just to keep track of everything, but i really don't want to drop unnecessary money anymore. I'd just keep track of what i won/lost for the month and that'd be ok i think. I'd like to know how many hands and all that but whatever. I think when i start tracking everything that closely though it becomes not as fun. Or i'll start tilting and changing things in my game b/c of small sample sizes etc. Idk, i think if i get real serious about plo it'll be a must have, but til then i'll just stick w/ what i got.

That's really all i have to say. I'm back on leggo full throttle again, and should be playing a bit more poker now. Since i'm not going to school this semester i'll try and give poker another serious run. We'll see what happens though. See you peeps around the forums and blogville, pz.

I have a lot to update on and will try to squeeze it all into one blog post. First off, it's moving day for me! Finally when i'm talking up a girl at the bar and they ask where i live, i won't have to drop my head and mumble "w/ my parents". That wasn't the only reason for moving out, i just think it's time and i have a good opportunity to move in w/ some of my best friends and party hard for a year. It's been very time consuming cleaning every thing out and packing it all up this week. I had 8 garbage bag fulls of stuff i didn't want anymore. All i have to do now is wait for the other guy to move out sometime today and then i just have to haul everything over.

One of my roommates just got engaged about a week ago. I've known him since birth and at one point we were bff's. We're still really good friends but i think we didn't have much in common and have kind of drifted apart a bit. I'm still in the running for best man, but he says i'll for sure be standing up so that should be good times. Will be my second time, and the first time was sweet despite not knowing anyone. The owners (two of my roommates) are talking about selling the house next spring. By that time i should have the car paid off and afford to move out on my own.

I haven't logged onto a poker site in two weeks now. It feels so weird, after grinding Iron Man for 4 straight months to not playing at all. I do want to play again, but i'm not sure if i want to do plo or 6max holdem which i've invested a lot of time into getting good at. I think i may be burnt out still from 6max, and the challenge of mastering a new game seems like fun(not to say i've mastered my current game, but u get the idea). Either way i probably won't play anything til next week cause i have to move and get settled in.

I ended up dropping my college courses. I think it's just going to be too much work. My normal job is going to be demanding a ton of overtime for the rest of the year and i don't really want to pile even more work on myself. I started by just dropping one course, but then after a few days of thinking ended up dropping both of them. I know it's smart for me to go back to college and blah blah, but i have a decent job already, and have a very active life. If i lose my job i'll have all the time in the world to go to school. I'm ready to just work and play poker on the side again. Except this time poker will be more of a hobby and not an obsession (let's see how long it takes before it rules my life again).

So I think that's all i had to update on. I have no idea how my July results were. I'm guessing i played about 4-5k hands between plo and holdem and i think i won a hundred or two. Mostly cause i ran like fire at rush plo. So that's it for now, next blog post will be from my new living space. Cribs edition blog? Maybe if i can learn how to make that work.

Went to Watersmeet, MI in the Upper Peninsula for Fri-Sun. Had a blast, great group of ppl (9 of us). Set out Friday (took day off work) around noon. Hit up a strip club and a few other stops along the way. Probably the worst strip club ever (just googled the closest one on the way there), but i'd rather be at the worst strip club than the best place w/o boobs . Grabbed some dinner, then finally arrived at my buddy's property around 8ish. I didn't get a picture of the actual place but it was basically a pole barn w/ a few enclosed bedrooms and lots of toys (4 wheelers, fishing stuff, etc.) He had an explanation of why he built a pole barn instead of a cabin but i don't remember what it was. That night didn't do too much, just set up camp and chilled til about 2am.

Didn't sleep much, woke up around 630am and mostly just tossed and turned for those few hrs. Had some breakfast and set off to see some waterfalls. Nature was beautiful, went to several different hiking areas throughout the day. Came back around 5 or 6 and did some 4 wheeling for a bit. Made up some dinner (pork chops, steaks, and burgers obv), and digested for a while. Then just made a fire and made s'mores and crap. Went to bed around midnight and woke up around 7am on Sunday.

Had a much better sleep the second night, though still not great. I was pretty burnt out cause i'm not a big outdoors guy(nice way to say out of shape), so me and the other fat guys went to the casino down the street. It was empty, only a few ppl playing slots and one or two playing table games. I lost $200 at blackjack within about 20 min. Then i walked over to the 1 cent slots and put in $1. Hit max bet playing like 15 lines or something, and won $260 on the first pull. Cashed out and watched my friends play, one guy made $150 and the other broke even. One guy a couple slots down who we didn't know won $2300 on a $1 machine. So the place was paying out that day. Came back and everyone was ready to leave so we headed back.

Only stopped once for food and one pee stop so we made good time on the way back. Left at about 230 and got home a lil after 8pm. Was definitely a good trip, for a lil while i was getting a bit annoyed and frustrated with ppl but that will happen when you don't get much sleep and you're with ppl for a long period of time. 2.5 days was plenty long for me, anything longer i need a hotel and more stuff to do that i enjoy(basically Vegas). So good to be home sleeping in a bed and able to use a fast internet (had my phone but it was not optimal.) Anyways, that's all i got, i'll post some pics below. If you're friends w/ me on the bookface i have about a dozen pics on there, otherwise u can enjoy the couple i've picked out here.

probably best pic i got of a waterfall


sporting the leggo hoodie


back end of a sunset, this was right out the door of the pole barn

I just checked today and I guess my payment for college is due tomorrow or I am dropped from my classes. I just signed up less than two weeks ago and classes don't start for another month WTF!!!! It's kind of whatever, i gotz the money I just don't know if it will get there in time. It kind of has me thinking if I even want to go, i mean shit just got real up in here you know. I mean the idea of going to school and learning stuff and getting a degree sounds great, but actually doing it BLOWS!!! I hate taking courses, i hate homework, i hate meeting deadlines, i basically hate everything about school. However, i think it's something i need to do and am going to suck it up.

It's been a while since my last update, for a long time i didn't play any poker and just hung out with friends. It's amazing how much free time i have when i don't let poker rule my life. There's so much out there to do, it gives me hope for when I'm totally done with poker (if that ever happens). Since a few days ago i've been starting to play a bit again. Mostly just doing plo, and over a small sample have been crushing it. I'll prolly stick w/ plo until I start running bad and then crawl back to hold'em. I'm really dreading school even more now that I've been running good and making monies.

Work has been 10 hr days and every other saturday for 6 hrs since coming back from Vegas. Now that poker isn't top priority, it's not as bad, but still sucks. Last week i went out and had fun almost every night, this week I've basically just sat in bed and watched tv. Both weeks have been pretty satisfying. I took Friday off work cause I'm going up to Michigan w/ some friends. My one buddie's dad has a cabin up there so we're gonna go drink, fish, hike, and hopefully go to the strip club up there. There's also a casino right down the road, and i think the plan is to hit that up, no poker there but i think there's some cheap blackjack and other games. Either way should be a good time.

That's about it i guess, just haven't updated in a while so wanted to do that. Just trying to get through tomorrow and then i'm on vacation (for 1 day anyways.) I really do miss Vegas, mostly just going out to eat and the freedom of not having to do anything. Was thinking today at work of planning another trip out there soon, but not sure if it will work out cause I want to save some money. Alright everyone, take care.

I've decided I need to go back to school and get some more of that edu-ma-cation stuff. I just don't think poker is going to be there for me in the long run. I might get to a level where i can make a living, but it's very uncertain how the games will be in 5 yrs and I'm not going to keep spending this much time on something that may or may not be a solution. I'm not quitting poker, but I'm going to be playing a lot less to focus on my job and my school work. It just seems like the best option for me.

I'll most likely be cashing out a large percentage of my roll. Since I can't focus much of my time on poker I won't be able to play at as high a level(or as low? since i only play 50nl). I probably won't be doing too much away from the table either, so i just think it's smart to drop down to 10nl and not really worry about money. Poker is basically being downgraded to a hobby for me, not my life passion.

For the last few months poker has been good, but i just haven't had as much fun as i used to. Perhaps that's b/c i'm winning and moving up to higher levels where I'm getting stressed. I don't know what it is, but if i'm not having fun, or making loads of cash, there's really no reason for me to keep grinding it out. I want to get back to the good 'ol days when i just played when i felt like it, and didn't care as much. I don't expect 10nl to ever catch up to a higher level, so i think it will be beatable forever. Not that i'm looking to "crush" 10nl and be super stoked about it, I just don't want to have to work so hard to win. It's not being lazy, i'm just going in a new direction and poker takes up way too much time.

I'm not even sure how much i'll play, maybe only occasionally on weekends. I'll still be around leggo for sure, might not be posting as much in the strat forums but will still be a presence everywhere. Leggo's been too important and i've made too many friends here to just drop everything. I really enjoy posting here and helping ppl out.

Classes start August 23rd, until then I'm just going to enjoy life and probably take a lil break from poker. A month or two from now i may be writing a new blog on how i can't wait to get back into poker, but right now i just won't have the time or motivation to play much. I get free college through my work, so i figure i'd be a fool not to take it. I've already had 4 classes on them but dropped out to focus more on poker. So it should be interesting to see how this plays out. I'm not overly excited about going back, after all i hated school, but i think in the long run it will benefit me so i'm just going to try and power through.

In other news, i don't know what the f is up with my moving out plans. I called my buddy up when i got back and it kind of sounded like he didn't care if he moved out or not. So i don't know what's going on with that. I really can't stand it here anymore, so if it comes down to it, i might just go find my own place.

So that's bout it i guess. I'm not really "giving up" on poker, just taking an extended break and we'll see how well things go. I'm kind of looking forward to this, i have a little mini challenge in my mind of how i want to build my $300 roll up and turn it into 1k again or something. But we'll see what happens i guess, it won't be easy since i won't have much time. See you guys and few gals around Leggoville! pz