Since I updated this beesh...

So I'll guess I'll start in June, of which I spent in Vegas. Really the whole time was pretty chill actually, I got a good amount of grind in and all the housemates were cool, not one bad seed really. I caught a shitty cold basically the entire last two weeks I was there, so that kind of put a damper on some fun-having, I just couldn't kick that mofo for the life of me. I'm not really complaining though, I sort of intended to treat it as a business trip. It was cool to meet some of those guys for sure though

Since then I've been back in Oregon, I got a small one-bedroom house that some of my family owns. Basically they said take care of the yard, and stay for free. Obv the poker player in me is way behind in that department. The town I'm in is actually like 20 minutes south of my hometown and only about 2k people live here, compared to my hometown which is still only like 25k. It's very boring here and it probably won't last long. I'm in the process of checking out some places and if I could be out of here by sometime in September that'd be clutch.

As far as poker goes I've been on the 100nl grind for what seems like a while. It's funny how valuable a good environment goes towards your poker game. Not having a steady, solid grinding place since Mexico hasn't exactly helped my game...I'm getting by though.

I sorta feel like I've been cheating myself for a while at poker, selling myself short, etc., so I've been spending a decent amount of time lately reading, listening, and sorta trying to retool my game. It's frustrating when 6 months ago I was at a point where I had the chance to jump up as a mid-stakes reg, and I'm still here. I guess it's the funny the more you know about poker, the more you realize you don't know...or so they say. I actually cancelled my video membership because I just felt like I wasn't getting the right use out of it. I have nothing bad to say about the quality here, it's basically all on my end. I'm reasonably confident in the direction I'm heading though.

Anyway, I just killed a fucking gigantic spider in my kitchen. The bugs in this area are utterly fucking ridiculous and I HATE spiders, I'm definitely going to start looking for a new city with haste.

Peace Leggo, Nuey

P.S. I would REALLY like to get some kind of a regular sweat group going. If you play like 50nl+ and are at all interested, please comment or PM me.

Haven't blogged in a bit, thought I might as well. I also wasn't wasn't gonna go to Vegas this summer but the title got the best of me. I'll be there the first two weeks of June for sure a la casa de Robin y Jefe, possibly longer if I enjoy myself.

The past month has been ridden with a lot of life drama, my living situation fell through. Long story short Homey's girl was trippin' and I called her on it. Bad idea by me maybe but sometimes you just gotta check a bitch, nah mean?

I've kinda been surrounded by alot of drama lately. I really think I'm not a dramatic person at all, not sure if it's just runbad or I'm getting karma or what. Needless to say it's led me to really consider dropping some people in my life I was previously really close with, and for sure drop others. Being a single dude and somewhat of a loner as I am, I guess it makes this dropping people thing easy.

So trying to find a place to live around here had been ridiculously difficult, I'm done with roommates for a while(non-poker). I just want a place where I can grind in peace, eat my own food, and do whatever the hell I want mostly. Not having any luck find a place kinda pushed me towards Vegas where I can come back when school is out and probably have much better luck. I'm kiiiinda stretching myself thin going down there bankroll wise, but I think it'll still be a +EV opportunity and I can count it for my summer vacation.

After Vegas is done I will get my own place, most likely in my home town. Summers here are fun enough and I do have a pretty good network of friends that like the things I like. I'm looking forward to also grinding my ass off more than ever before, and kinda getting my life going.

I realize this blog has been kinda ranty and sporadic, my apologies. One love, Nuey.

No, not really. Approaching being uncomfortable with my roll is more like it. A combination of life tilt and playing bad has added to the most recent downswing. My usual run bad followed by wanting to mass multitable to get unstuck didn't work this time, unfortunately. Usually playing a bunch of tables can stop me from spewing, not this time though:/

I've decided to man-up and take responsibility for my game and spend some time 4-6 tabling nl100 for a bit til I make 20 buyins or so. Hopefully I can regain some tightness and folding ability and logic in that time. Ugh it sucks when you don't see the light at the end of the tunnel:/

I did finally have a good session today, it's just crazy to me how much losing impedes my progress as a player. I basically lose all motivation to get better til I start winning again. Today I started reading a bunch after booking a winning session, forum posts and such. Needless to say, I have a lot to work on as a pro.

On a lighter note, I've been paintballing alot lately and enjoying it, definitely great for anti-tilt. I bought a Tippman 98 custom and have been busy getting extra gadgets for it. I also decided it's time to get my ass back in the gym and lift and b-ball it up. Hopefully maybe by summer's end I can be back to my old basketball self, and on track with how much I used to be able to lift.

Night all, Nuey.

So probably a long blog, maybe slightly emo not sure.

I felt pretty accomplished after coming back from Mexico. You could say I had somewhat of a life high from braving the drive up and down through Mexico, and La Paz itself. Not too many people who aren't 60 year old Ex-pats or canadians really seem to do that from what I could tell.

I'm very grateful to Jeff and all the work he put in for all of us. I think maybe he felt unappreciated at times but I know that wasn't the case. I don't think any one of us would envision doing it in the manner that he did. Jeff is definitely a godfather of sorts haha(no homo).

Overall though, my feelings about the trip are mixed. Overall I wish I would've taken a slightly touristy approach and gotten out and experienced more of what Baja had to offer. Something about "living" there for 2 months made me less ambitious to do that kind of thing. I do think sometime in the next year or so I may just fly down there and actually keep an itinerary.

So upon returning to Oregon, I've decided to ahead and shack up with my friend Will for the time being. I have a bunch of financial crap to deal with before I settle where ever I wanna settle and I want to make sure I'm not broke before all is said and done. Hopefully they will put up with me for like 2 months and I can grind my ass off and get mostly out of debt

I have thought about a place I might want to live once I get a little more financially square. At the moment Vegas, SF area, and Eugene, OR are the first to come to mind. Unfortunately I have little experience in each place, though they all seem like fun places respectively. I may get motivated to search for a school here soon too, that could affect things as well. It's weird to think that I'm at a crossroads of sorts, and don't really belong or feel the need to be in any one place.

As far as poker goes, I've been feeling pretty unconfident lately. I'm definitely in the questioning myself and the "oh hey, i don't know anything" mode. I'm sure a little run good(and maybe some play good too) will change everything, I just really hate questioning myself. One of these days I'll stop being emo about this game, though I've def made leaps and bounds.

Anyway for the time being I've resorted to what I normally when I'm not feeling confident, and that's like 10-15 table nl100. It's easy enough and I'm pretty confident in my abilities to be a pretty solid winner doing it. Not sure what my actual winrate is, but it's a great way for me to regain my momentum and eek out some profit while I'm at it.

I'll try to post more life stuff and get on this thang more in the future. Yea I know tl;dr, and no I probably won't blog more....

Alright so trek back to this most recent sunday...

10:00 AM - Wake up, wish Robin, Jeff, Reef, Crispy, and Jordan a kind farewell. Dink around for a little bit and go watch US lose to Canada in Hockey. I almost snap bought a Parise jersey, meh I still may cause I thought that was a mega epic goal(way better than Crosby's gfy buddy!).

4:30 - Go home and make up for lack of sleep
8:30 - Wake up, pack. Get Kyle moved. Get ready to leave
1:00 - Leave La Paz for a straight trek through the Baja Peninsula with my friend Chris to accompany me.

K, enough of the time stamps. Not far from La Paz I get pulled over for doing like 110 km/hr in a 70 I think(lol mexico speed limits). He wants to take us back to the office and charge us about 200 usd, I ask him "how much" and he clearly understood what that meant. We haggle for probably 10 minutes and I do my best to wait him out, but the lowest I can get him to go on the spot is 1000 pesos($80, fml). I proceed to feel like a big bitch and pay him, whatev I'll just watch my speed in towns from here on out.

The rest of the drive actually went fairly smoothly actually. We ran into a guy that hid flipped his truck around 6am. It looked like he dodged a pile of rocks in the road and overcorrected, he had a nice Toyota that was def totalled. We helped him get all his stuff out, and realized he had quite the strong liquor smell on his breath but he was physically alright. Hooked the man up with a Gatorade and waited for his friend to come and we moved on.

The rest of the trip really just consisted of alot of driving. We hit 7 different military checkpoints, because our our espanol is muy poquito we had to get out at every stop. I gotta say though the Mexican military guys were really pretty cool in general, we able to joke around in some ways with a few and most of them just looked like young guys doing their job.

I slept on the way down through the North Coast of the Baja Peninsula, but I gotta say it's a really fuckin beautiful area and kinda caught me off guard. It was much more green than Baja Sur, and some realllly cool beaches around Ensanada. I felt like I was in a South American country more than a Mexican one. I think I would def consider a vacation in Ensanada, seems like a pretty sweet area.

Right after Ensanada was Tijuana, we actually only got lost once there and we were able to get right back on track. I was pretty happy we got through Tijuana quickly(It's easy on the way up Jeff!).

We got across the border around 7:30 PM, so 18.5 hours on the drive. I think I slept maybe one hour the whole way. Rented a room at La Quinta and slept harder than I have in quite a long time. Sorry for the lack of pics but I kinda gave up on my camera but I should have some vids from my flip soon.

I think today was my worst day since going full-time with poker. I definitely spewed in spots, and I definitely got pumped over and over again. I was pretty happy with myself for doing my best to keep my tilt level down and not shout/break anything.

Upon quitting and feeling uber tilted, I decided to take a walk and venture into the mexican back streets at 1am. I was somewhat nervous but in my tilted state, I was almost hoping for confrontation. Besides a few dogs barking and startling the shit out of me, nothing happened lol. I actually found some run good at the coke machine, getting 2 Cokes for 1.

After getting home, I was left to sit and debate why I felt so pissed. Really the only thing that I could thing of was just that I lost 2k in the pure dollar amount tilt type w/e. I can't really be mad at the beats, was maybe only a little mad at my play, and I consider myself beyond the "I deserve to win I'm better than all these donks blah blah". I know poker doesn't owe me anything.

I tried the whole blame it on EV thing, which is LOL imo. Moral of the story is stop bitching, be a pro. I think today is lockdown mode time, gonna go ahead and ban myself from 2/4+ for a while and probably go into rakeback pro mode for a couple weeks.

Going Dutchman style, Nuey out.

So since I've been here for more than two weeks with the crew, and Robin and Jeff have posted multiple blogs, I guess I'll do mine.

Drive down: From Pendleton, Oregon on January 2nd to La Paz, BCS in 3 days. Longest drive I've ever been a part of. Basically Mexico is ghetto the entire way until you get to La Paz, and believe me that's a lot of ghetto.

I don't think I'll post any pics, I'd probably just be double posting a bunch of them anyways.

Arrive to La Paz around 6pm Jan 5th, insert epic week of drunkenness, clubs, underage girls, La Policia, Cabo, awesome food, beaches, and more Spanish speaking than I would prefer. All that made for a pretty solid first week.

Our second week was spent basically chillin out, recooperating, going to the beach, and trying to grind when mexiconet decided it wanted to work. I suppose this week has been similar.

Thoughts on La Paz so far:

1. The language barrier is a bit worse than I thought. I guess I'm a fish for not anticipating that better, we are getting by fine though(getting a haircut and not being able to tell them what you want SUCKS though, lol).

Also; as expected, more of the Mexican population here speak English than they lead on.

2. As previously mentioned, the food here rules. I think it did take a bit for my guts to adjust to it, but it's cheap and crushes any Mexican food I've ever had. There are always alot of American restaurants and fast food for when we get tired of it.

3. La Paz is probably a little less nice than I anticipated. When you drive along with the exception of our neighborhood and the downtown are in general, it kind of seems to fade in and out of nice and not so nice. I can't say I've been anywhere where I've felt nervous for my own safety or anything like that though. Just speaking soley of appearances(I know, it's Mexico ldo).

So I suppose that's enough rambling for the time being. I think Jaymes took these two pics of the southern tip of the Baja Peninsula, but I don't think they got posted! Pretty cool imo.





OH, and here's a couple vids I took with my new Flip:

This is the beach we've been frequenting, pretty cool shot towards the left of some Pelicans group diving: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KhcvXIgiwgA

Pretty sweet Mariachi(sp?) band playing La Bamba when we were in Cabo, they did some other pretty cool noteable songs as well: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=52LqYXQJ9Yw

I have a laundry list of goals that I need to write sometime in the next few days. I would say resolutions but those kind of just seem like set in stone goals that most people, including me, tend to fail.

Most of the goals in life and poker involve me not selling myself short, I can't really think of a better way to summarize it than that. One specific goal is that I would like to be a winning reg at 3/6 by the end of the year.

Leaving for Mexico tomorrow! Gonna be a fuckin marathon drive, luckily it's gonna be spread over 3 days. I have way to much to do today and gotta leave early tomorrow, got friends to visit along the way So anyways, Happy New Years all!

Went to the Chiropractor today, I've had some ribs that have been "out" for a while now and it's flared up and really bugged me the past week. It's made it hard to get much volume in at all. The guy jerked me around quite a bit, I don't feel that much better now but hopefully it'll work itself out in the next few days.

Getting volume in hasn't been easy my first month as a pro. With my back and all my friends around, distractions have proven to be a bit of a hill to get over. It's probably not realistic but hopefully once Mexico comes around I can get in some volume.

As far as Mexico goes, I'm pretty excited to get out of here and get down there. It'll be a hectic few days and a long ass drive but I'm excited to see some sun. I know lost and Robin are leaving for Thailand right after our two month stint, I am thinking I may stay for a while longer if all goes well. It's possible I just go back to Oregon and get my own place and grind hard for most of 2010 as well.

Oh yea, saw two indians duking it out at wal-mart. I think they were fighting over a girl. I just laughed the whole time it definitely made my day.

So I put my two weeks notice in at work on monday. I was anxious about telling my bosses and I don't know why. I get anxious over stupid stuff sometimes, or just moody in general.

Decided to book on Mexico which has obv been posted several times by the party. I got a lot banking on this trip really moreso than just having fun, all I can say is I kinda hope my first few months as a full time poker player go well. I at least hope I don't lose.

Got a lot of stuff to do in the next couple weeks. I'll be in Oregon from Thanksgiving to when I leave to for Mexico. Gonna go ahead and try to cut down on possessions before I head down to Oregon, if I could fit all my belongings in my Yukon without getting a Uhaul that would be sick.

Been doing an ok job at kicking back up at poker. My game has been a bit rusty, I hope to get all the tweaks out soon and get to being a 3-4BB/100 winner at nl200 consistently. I need to set some goals soon, but I'm not sure what they are. I was thinking of a $$ amount challenge since I've failed every single hand challenge I've ever done.

Sighhh I need to update this thing more than monthly feel like I need to write a novel every time I blog. I could say more but I'll cut it short this time, peaces bishes.